Ok, it's a Wednesday & today we found, what I hope, will be the right colour for the hall paint job..... it better be, I don't really want to buy another pot of paint - this last one was up around the £15 mark & that's too expensive for my taste !! Never mind - if I paint the wall & it lasts about 10 years (probably less) well, it works out at about £1.50 a year - so that's not so bad I guess !! I think it's a kind of oatmeal colour - not sure how else to describe it....... I'll do one wall with it & it looks like c**p, we'll think again.
ME's boyfriend has just come & agrees with me - it looks like someone has "thrown up" over the wall - charming stuff !! Welcome to what makes day to day conversation in our humble home....... hopefully it'll all work out Ok - it's not that bad a colour really !! For me, that's it !!
Ok, I mentioned ME & M - who have been together now for 2 solid years !! J is upstairs in his hole, sorry, bedroom & B has gone out to 'keep fit' class, down at the local school - she wasn't that keen on going, but she really wants to keep the weight off & the class helps.
Talking of weight, I'm still losing too much, according to one of the consultants..... it's hard trying to keep it on at the moment - being 'poorly' - I can't keep it on. Oh well......... we'll see what it lands up like. The consultant, who is doing the implant, is happy with it, so that's a good thing. As yet, I've not had a date for the implant surgery - I was really I'll hear from them this week.... keep watching for the postman !!
Plus we have some stuff coming in the post & only one of those - ME's handbag - has got here so far..... why when you want something, it never gets here & the stuff you don't want - the bills & reminders - always reach you ? At the moment, we're not doing so bad money wise. Sure we never have very much of it & kind of live from one day to the next, but we get by & that's what counts !! It helps I can not eat hardly anything anymore - just my liquid food & that's supplied by the Dr's as part of my treatment. B moans at me if I don't try & eat, but some days I'm just feeling well enough......
Tomorrow is another visit to the Dentist - yippee !! B will be pleased - she just loves going soooooo much !! Me I don't care - tho' I went a week or 2 back & he couldn't help me......... something about me going to the hospital to have it checked out by a specialist. As yet I've not see the specialist, so - I'm not sure if Vinny will do anything. My whole mouth hurts like crazy at the moment & has done for the last few weeks.
I hope it's nothing to do with my medical problems - it has yet to attack my mouth, so that could be something to 'look forward' to.... they keep taken bits out of me, I don't want to wake up one morning without a chunk of my mouth !!!!! So tomorrow will be the Dentist Pt...... I forget !! Onwards........
The music of the moment is the fantastic Nightwish & their live 'From Wishes To Eternity' live DVD soundtrack - back with Tarja on vocals..... they are doing 'Dead Boys Poem' & every time I hear this, I want to put in into my funeral plans, but I will settle for the songs I have already picked out for the 'big day' !! One tune in, a nice tune in the middle & one tune out - nice & simple !!
I've not played too many things today - I went into town with B & then sort of collapsed into bed & didn't wake up for 3 hours !! I really have been feeling the tiredness today........ hopefully, it'll sort itself soon - I'm getting lower & lower in myself & can't seem to get my get up & go working !! I don't like sleeping all day, but....... sometimes I have no choice.
Oh well - Enough of the moaning.... I'm going to flap these arms long enough to keep me flying just a while longer. I want to be there for ME's graduation next year - that I must see, no matter what !! I love all my kids.... C in Canada, J & ME here in England - not to mention my Wife & Dearest Friend, without who I wouldn't be here now.........
She really cares for me, knowing when I'm down in the dumps & feeling low or in pain..... she said she wouldn't take me back to The Church, until I'm sure I will not get too upset with what is said. Bishop has offered to sort out some Temple lessons for us, but - at the moment - I won't be going.
We've been members of The Church for shy of 4 years & as far as going to Temple is concerned - after what has been said - my heart is just not it....we will be together, no matter what. For now, it's too late to go - I feel my time is running out !!
Goodnight Worlds
Bye Bye
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