Am I the only one ?

Greetings World's !!

It's another Friday - here in the wilds of England's South-West !! That - kind of - means, the end of another week !! I can't get my head around, just how quick the weeks go by... one minute, it's July - then the next, it's pushing towards the end of October !!

Anyhoo - it's another Friday...

As I type, B is here beside me.... She has just come back, from taking Murphy - our neighbour's dog - for a walk.... Both dog & Wife seem to have enjoyed themselves !! As for me - well.... I've been out of bed, just about 15 minutes... so, altho' it's pushing towards 1pm... I'm just about waking up !!

For the record - I've not been tardy !! I managed to get a really great nights sleep (I think ?) - which meant I landed up taking my morning pills at about 7 ish. The knock on effect is, as I've written before, they knock me sideways... aka, completely zonko !! Hence - I only really woke up, a little while ago !! Nevermind... life is good !!

Luckily - in one way or another - I wasn't really with it, when the district nurse came by & did my dressings. Sure - I was awake, but... the pain was a little kept in check, by being half asleep !! It was Ok really - one of the better nurses did the deed - and she knows me well enough, to take things slowly !! Bless her !!

Next week - on the Wednesday - I have to make the trip, back down to Exeter... to see the surgeon, who has been experimenting (only joking) on my back. The nurse - who came today - says it's still looking good.... sure, I still have a nasty hole in my back... but, it's looking good !! Sooooo - the surgeon will have to decide what to do next !!

I'm not really sure, what will be the next stage..... but, I am really losing the plot.... I have really had enough now !! There is only sooooo much that I - or anybody else, for that matter - can put up with & I've reached that part of my life, where, quite honestly - I could just let everything fly past me & leave me alone !!

I told B "I've had enough" - I don't think anybody has really understood, exactly what I mean by that..... but it's very true.... I've really "had enough" - only being asleep, seems to help me along !! Nevermind - I mustn't let things get too on top of me.... tho' - with all of the pills & potions that are around me, "getting too on top" of me, would be very easy !!

Life goes on...

Thankfully - apart from "My Family" - I also have my music - to keep me smiling.... As I type - I'm playing Rainbow's 'Black Masquerade' live 2 Cd set.... well, it's just coming to the end of disc 2... 'Smoke On The Water' is blasting away !!

As mentioned before - we connected up a bunch of other speakers... which, when needed, gives me an extra bit of volume. Ok - no more volume, than before - just a bit louder than normal !! I can turn the amp way up - and the extra speakers take on the extra sound, with-out any distortion..... it sounds really "meaty" !! Not exactly "Hi-fi"... but certainly loud !! It's a shame I didn't get around to plugging them in before - but....

I listed the tracks - to 'Black Masquerade' a while back - so... you can check them out, by reading one of my earlier post. As it's just come to an end - I'm now playing Bruce Springsteen's 'Wrecking Ball' album.... the tracks are:

  1) We Take Care Of Our Own
  2) Easy Money
  3) Shackled & Drawn
  4) Jack Of All Trades
  5) Death To My Own Town
  6) This Depression
  7) Wrecking Ball
  8) You've Got It
  9) Rocky Ground
10) Land Of Hope & Dreams
11) We Are Alive
12) Swallowed Up
13) American Land

As mentioned, a while back - I dug out several old Springsteen Cd's.. this was one of them. Ever since hearing his first album, all those years ago, I was hooked on The Boss !! I did kind of smile - when friends got hold of 'Born In The USA' and went raving about the man.... they came late to the party !! Oh well....

Going back, to the start of the year - I intended writing about albums, that had meant something to me. Well - that all went out the window... I just forgot all about it !! Nevermind - but, with that idea in mind - I was playing Ten Years After's 'Cricklewood Green' album, a few days ago..

By "playing it" - I was actually listening to it... rather than just having it on in the background..... Anyhoo - 'Love Like A Man' came on - I was completely gobsmacked by it !! How to explain ?!

I remember, when it came out, as a 7 inch single - many, many years ago - I ordered up a copy..... mainly as it contained the same track, in 2 versions. Side A was the edited studio version - the B Side was an edited live version...... and, as I was always on the look out for 'live' recordings, that was the reason for buying a copy.

I wrote, some times back, about how I used to buy stuff, from a little music shop. It was in the town, near to where I grew up - and the lady who ran it, well - she helped me a huge amount, when it came to buying stuff..... anyways, back to 'Love Like A Man'.

The thing came into the shop - but, instead of the lady being there, it was her husband who served me..... When he saw the single & realised that it had the same track, on both sides - well, it took a bit of explaining to him, that it wasn't a mistake !! For some reason, he didn't want to sell it to me.... I never really understood what they were.... nevermind...

I got the record & I must of played it over & over.... but, when I played the Cd, I realised, I was hearing it, really hearing the track, for the first time !! It sounded sooooo very different !! It's the same track - but, after all of these years - it really got a hook into me & took me back, to those days, when I bought the single.

It's probably the drugs, but I can't explain how much I enjoyed listening to that one track.... probably for the very first time, I heard it with all of the instruments & stuff - it was/is brilliant !! Oh well - I have to admit - I've played a shed load of Ten Years After stuff lately... so, maybe I've overdosed - I don't really know. But - it's great to hear stuff, after all these years & enjoy it !!

Going back to yesterday.... and "Am I The Only One".

The Dr. doubled up, on my morphine pills, in the hope of trying to ease the pain. Well, I spent most of yesterday, absolutely "high as a kite" - completely stoned !! The pills were sending me on some kind of trip... that's the only way I can explain it !!

So - last night.... before taking my evening pills.... I asked B to remove all of the morphine pills, from my pot. It must sound crazy - wanting to come off of the things.... but, I couldn't spend another day like that. I know that they are there to help me - but, there is a limit to just how much I'm prepared to stick into my body !!

Plus - the longer that I'm on them... the more used I am, to letting them help me, as far as the pain goes. I couldn't do that - again !! A while back, some lady, who I saw - said I was addicted to the morphine... sooooo - I took myself off of them, if nothing else, to prove I wasn't addicted to the things !!

Yesterday, was just too much... so "am I the only one" who thinks, "I've done the right thing ?" !! Who knows - or cares, for that matter..... I did not want to get hooked on more pain killers..... yesterday was too much - it really was !!

Oh well - my plans for today......

I'm going to listen to some more music & maybe watch some TV - I'm not really sure !! The music of the moment - well, that's Gov't Mule's  'Mulennium' 3 Cd set.... the tracks are:

CD 1

  1) Bad Little Doggie
  2) Lay Your Burden Down
  3) Blind Man In The Dark
  4) Life Before Insanity
  5) Larger Than Life
  6) Towering Fool
  7) Countdown jam
  8) 21st Century Schizoid Man
  9) We're Not Going To Take It
10) Dazed & Confused

CD 2

1) When The Blues Comes Knockin'
2) My Dog & Me
3) Lump On Your Stump
4) I Can't Quit You Baby
5) It Hurts Me Too
6) Blues Is Alright
7) Is It My Body ?
8) Power Of Soul

CD 3

1) Helter Skelter
2) Sometimes Salvation
3) 30 Days In The Hole
4) End Of The Line
5) Out Of The Rain
6) I Shall Be Released
7) Simple Man

Track 7 - Cd 2... "Is It My Body ?".... now there is something to think about - especially as I forgot all about it, the track I mean !! Oh well - a great live set... go and buy yourself a copy !! I must go..

I thank you all, for taking the time, to log in & read my words... until next time..

Bye Bye