My World seems to be letting me 'down' at the moment......... I'm finding it very hard to deal, to cope with life at the moment - I usually manage to keep my spirits relatively 'high', but at the moment, I'm feeling very low. All I really want to do is stay in bed, lock myself away & sleep !!
It's a mix of many things really. I'm not feeling too well & that's been getting me down + this whole thing with the neighbour has upset the whole family & it's making me feel low - no, more than low..... really depressed !
The police finally came out & B & ME told them what was going on. So they went over to have a word with her & then later phoned me to say that I had to avoid her & any confrontation with her !! The only thing with avoiding her - is that she comes to our front door & then gives us a mouthful - it's hard to avoid someone when they are standing right in front of you !! I really do feel let down by them - the police - they seem to have missed the point altogether.
I called them, to report what she was doing & now I have to avoid her, to avoid any confrontation !! What do you have to do, to make a complaint ? I've just had enough now - life ain't worth this type of crap !!
So anyways - I'm back to where I was a few years ago - not wanting to go out........ it's like a kind of phobia. I feel happier staying indoors - away from people & all this has made me realise, I am better off not going out at all !!
With that in mind - I e-mailed The Bishop, to say I wouldn't be at Church today. I explained I was 'depressed' & at some point I will take to him about it...... I'll call him or get him to phone here. Things are really getting to me now, sorry Worlds.
Oh well.....as for the family...... ME has taken B for a ride into Taunton. She wanted something in the shops & dragged B along with her. B would of stayed with me, but I told her to go out - she does worry about me tho'.... bless her.
As for our Son, J... well, he's here abouts. Keeping an eye on me !! Yesterday I fell over - didn't pass out this time, just fell over some shoes on the floor. The result being, I now have a very sore knee - it took the brunt of the fall - oh well.... nothing to worry about !! So - he is here in case I need help at all.......
The music of the moment is Whitesnake's 'Ready & Willing'. I'm playing that old compilation collection I mentioned a few days ago...... Ok, I know it's a Sunday & maybe it's not the most suitable music - but....... Last Sunday, at Church, one of the speakers said something about how we should avoid music (and other things) with lyrics that are not exactly to good.... that's not his exact words - but I think you might get the idea ?!
He said, we should listen to things that give us a spiritual lift (or something like that) - well, Mr Speaker - when I'm low, depressed or what have you - this kind of music does give a spiritual lift !! It's my way of lifting my spirit, my mood - call it what you want.... The Lord is in our lives, but I don't think he would object to something that keep me happy - or, I should say, makes me feel happier. Music is my "safety net" & nobody is going to take that away from me....... Rush's 'Xanadu' is playing now - great song, great lyrics !!
Bye Bye
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