Saturday Night In The Madhouse !!

Greetings Worlds,

It's another weekend, here in my temporary home, also known as Taunton hospital....... and it's as crazy as always !! It's really weird to think - I came in for a week to 10 days & here I am, into my 6th week (I think). I've lost all track of time.... but, I came in on May 27th & I'm still here !! It's very strange - my whole life revolves around the routine imposed on us, by the doctors & nurses.

 But first the Family.

B came to visit me earlier.... and held my hands, as they changed my dressings on my back. My friendly Consultant came around two nights ago & when I told him how much pain I was in, during a dressings change, he seemed really surprised !! He thought, by now, that things would be numb - how wrong he was !!

Anyways, back to B's visit.... it was a really great 2 hours & it meant a lot to me, that she was here !! ME & M were away for the day - so I didn't expect to see them at all.... as for J - well, he still hates my guts, but tomorrow will be a turning point - for better, or for worse !! To explain......

It's that time of the year, when I "celebrate" my birthday !! Now then - I'm not expecting a massive day, but - it is a chance to put things behind us & move forward..... a last chance, really !!

Given where I am & all I have been thru' these past few weeks - well, if J doesn't show up tomorrow, I'll give up & he can live his life, as far as I'm concerned, in any way he chooses - as long as he does it away from me & my purse strings !! There is only so much I'm prepared to put up with & this is it !!

That might sound really harsh & self centered, but I don't care too much any more !!

In the past 6 weeks, or whatever it's been - I've had 4 surgeries & I'm left with a hole in my back... 32 cm long, over 5 cm wide & more than 2 cm deep........ I don't think a visit from my Son is too far off the scale of things to expect !! So - tomorrow is going to be very interesting !! I will no doubt let you know what the outcome is !!

Just staying with the whole hospital thing.....

I've been offered the chance to go home for the day. That means leaving here, in the morning - going home - and coming back in the evening. It sounds like a great idea - but because I'm hurting so much, I've said I would like to leave it for a while, until I feel better.........

This has been twisted, by some, that I don't want to go home........ oh you are so very wrong !! I really do want to go home, more than anything - but I don't see going back to the homestead, if all I'm going to do is spend the day in pain !! That's not going to be a lot of fun............ never mind !!

I have, up to another 4 weeks in this place - so I have plenty of time to go home & come back.......Such fun !!

I've just had a nurse here, sorting out my pills...... I could see, she was trying to read what I was writing. It was really funny !! So much so, as she messed up & missed 2 of my pills - see, reading my blog is enough, to put trained professionals off that work !!

On the music front - as I type, I'm listening to one of Dream Theater's live Cd's on the Mini Egg. One thing about being laid up, like this - I'm getting to listen to lots of different stuff !! This is from the 'Chaos In Motion' live set - which was recorded in 2007.... I didn't realise it was that old !! It's been fun - playing it from end to end tho' - I don't often get that much chance to do that....... I guess it's pushing towards 3 hours long, so.... being in bed, like this, is a great opportunity to listen to it !!

I like going to bed at night, with the Egg on shuffle..... with 29,000+ tracks on the thing, you never know what's coming next !! Great fun.......

I've just spoken with B, on the 'phone - I'm going to try and go home, on Thursday... about 5 days from now. I have a dressing change on Monday & another one on Wednesday - so, by Thursday (I hope) it might not be as painful.... so that's the day I'm aiming at !! I'll have a talk with my Consultant - the next time he is about & we'll see what he says !! B sounds happy enough about it....... so, we'll see what happens.

Right, I must away........ It's pushing towards 10pm - so, it's getting to the point, where I want to chill out & get back to reading the book, ME gave me for "Father's Day"......... which I suspect I've mentioned before, is the first book in The saga of 'A Game Of Thrones'. So far - if you try & forget the soft porn aspect of it, I've enjoyed it. It's well long tho' - which is just what I need, being stuck in this madhouse !!

Must away.... my thanks to all of you for logging in & reading my words....... it's really good to know
 you're all out there & taking the time to log in - from the USA, thru' Europe to Russia & beyond !! All comments welcome....... until next time....

Bye Bye