Why Why Why ?

Hi Worlds - I trust your pond life is breeding nicely ?

It's a lovely night outside & it's kind of quiet here in o' England... well, apart from my music !!  For some very strange reason, I'm playing Barbra Streisand as I type.... so, I repeat why Why WHY ?  Well, mainly as it was on top of the pile of Cd's I'm sorting out - so that's the reason 'why'... I have no other excuse !!

When it finishes - in about 10 seconds - Jethro Tull's 'Bursting Out' Cd will take it's place..... so the music of the moment is & will be for the next hour (maybe) Jethro Tull !!  It's a great live album & is well worth a listen if you see a copy anywheres !!  I used to have it on Lp, so the Cd replaced that......

Well, it's been a very quiet day - got up, went back to bed, got up again & now I'm playing music & typing these words to you Dear readers out there in Internet land !!  I've been a little under the weather, so sleeping seems to be a very good idea at the moment - not right now, but later !!

The nurse lady left me some charts to fill out, ready for her next visit on Friday (I think) - to be honest, they are a pain, but I have to do them..... I guess (?).  Anyhooo - she'll be back again to check up on me & I hope to be a little 'better' for her visit !!  I'm not sure how often she will call around - maybe 'til I die I guess !! So, she'll be here many many times, as I have no intention of dying - well, not yet at least !!  I'll keep flapping my arms as long as I can & when I'm tired - well, my family & our Lord will help me do the rest....

I've still not heard from the hospital about my implant - but (I'm guessing) they wont fit it at the moment.... no point in sticking expensive 'bionics' in me - well, unless they are sure I'm going to get a bit of use out of them.  I feel, more now than ever before, that this life of mine is becoming very real.....  I try not to let it get to me, but when the pain gets to point that I just pray for help, because the med's aren't working - or whatever - it plays om my mind a lot.

I'm seeing another 'nurse' on Friday for a talk about "everything"..... I've seen her before & she is great fun to talk to !!  Sometimes I see people & it's really depressing !!  This time should be Ok tho' - I'm still feeling (sort of) positive...... all the stuff that needs to be sorted out, had been sorted out. & we're passed all the 'sad' bits - tho' B & I still have the odd 'toot' about everything - but, we're quite strong in our little way + the Lord will guide us........  I not maybe the best Christian in The Church - but, we have faith !!

We were really hoping to go to Temple to be 'Sealed'.... but that is NOT going to happen, which is a shame as I would of liked to be with B in the after life..... but it ain't going to happen.  Toooooo many obstructions intrusions are in our ways & the powers that be wont let us go - shame really as I would of loved to have gone to Temple... never mind, it's not going to happen & it's.  There is so little time left to us now - there is no point in worrying bout it & what have you.

Right, I have to close down for now - B is out doing 'keep fit' - J is upstairs & I thing ME is cleaning hes car ... me, I need a bath & some beauty sleep !!

Bye Bye